Friday, July 3, 2015

What do you like to do for fun

The last 6 years my life have revolved around diaper changes, feedings, nap schedules, bed times, etc. There isn't much room for anything besides the occasional date night with the husband. Now my kids are a bit older and there are no diapers, only rare naps, and we can be on the go a little bit more. It sounds great (and it is) but the places we go are centered towards small children - play places, parks, library story time, t-ball games, swimming class, dance, or friends who also have children. My kids are in bed around 8 pm and I am usually to exhausted to plan on going out to do anything. So my evenings consist of cleaning up the house from the day, folding the laundry sitting in the dryer, netflix, or reading. And during the school year throw in making lunch for the next day and packing backpacks.

So when someone asks me 'what do you like to do for fun' I draw a blank. I don't know what I like to do for fun. This totally bums me out when I think about it. What did I use to like to do before having children - well I had friends and we would go out, have late nights, drink occasionally. And that can still be fun I suppose but even if I have a late night my kids are still up at 7 so it kind of dampers that. Plus I'm pretty much past that part of life where you want to go out all night.

I'm in the phase of life where wanting to go out takes preparation and sometimes days of planning. And then you realize most of the time that it's not really worth all the hassle. You have to make sure schedules are adjusted or you have a sitter and you plan exactly when you are going to go and be back. Then you have the cost of whatever you want to go out to do plus the cost of a babysitter and it really makes eating pizza on the couch sound better and better.

I know that eventually it will be easier for me to find things I like to do but I am not sure what that is going to be exactly. In the mean time I am just going to try to figure it out and hope no one asks me what I like to do for fun - because fun, what is that? Fun for me at this moment is having a conversation where I don't get interrupted 75 times!


Monday, June 29, 2015

Thyroid Removal

So whenever I read online about people with thyroid problems it can range from one extreme to the other extreme and everywhere in between. I've pretty much stopped reading because every single person is different and there isn't a good way to compare person A with person B. It is nice however to know that you aren't alone in the craziness that is thyroid troubles.
The first time anyone ever mentioned my thyroid to me is when I was pregnant for Cain six years ago. I was terribly sick and after lots of blood work it was discovered that my "levels" T3 and T4, etc. etc. were off. After I had Cain I continued to get my levels checked and checked in with a doctor that I didn't like. (It seems to be very difficult to find an endocrinologist that is good at their job and good at explaining everything and so on) Everything seemed to go back to normal - I didn't have to be on any form of medication. For the next few years I stopped checking things and felt fine.
Fast forward to planning on having Carly. I checked in with my OB - explained the problems I had last pregnancy - and went back to the endo to get checked out. My levels were fine during this pregnancy. I never got sick once. And I didn't have any issues. Just a few weeks after Carly was born we moved to a new part of the state and I found a new family physician. I love her so much and she is the best family doctor I've ever had! I rave about her all the time! I explained to her my thyroid issues that I had had in the past and she referred me to a great endo that I now see regularly.
I visited him for the first time and explained my health history - we just kind of monitored my levels over the next year or two with no complications or problems. Then at the beginning of this year I started to slowly have problems but didn't really put it together that it might be my thyroid. I'm not sure why I didn't assume it right away but for whatever reason I didn't.
In April I felt like I was having a heart attack and had to go to the ER. No heart attack but I now had hyperthyroidism. It was making my heart race, I was shaky all the time, I started having anxiety, I had lost almost 15 pounds in two months, I had no energy and wanted to sleep all day. I went to the endo and they put me on medication, which started helping all the symptoms I was experiencing until my entire body broke out in hives and I was itching uncontrollably.
I talked about some options with my doctor and it was decided that I would get my thyroid removed. I met with a wonderful surgeon and scheduled the surgery. It's only been two weeks sense I've had my thyroid removed and I am feeling like a new person! Or rather my old self. I really don't know at this point how not having my thyroid will effect me long term but as of right now it's been a huge positive. I have not had my heart race one time sense the surgery, I have had more energy then I have in a long time, I don't feel anxious or shaky. The downsides for me so far - the giant scar I now have, taking a medication everyday for the rest of my life (however I was either going to have to take medication to control my thyroid or take it because I didn't have one so either way it sucks) and my hair is falling out like crazy! I am lucky that I have super thick hair to start out with so it isn't super noticeable but it makes me feel so bad for the people who don't have a lot of hair to start out with and then lose it. I do also know that weight gain or weight control in general can be difficult after this procedure so there's that too.
Anyway - all of this to say that I'm feeling good right now. I'm healing from surgery. I'm thankful that I was able to get it figured it out and take care of it.

Wednesday, May 6, 2015

Wow how time flies!
The last post I wrote was Cain's first week of school and now his school year of young 5's is coming to an end. This school year has been great! More then great I suppose. Cain is learning so much more then I thought was possible for young 5's. He is now reading, he is a whiz in math, and was the first student of the month during the school year. I am a super proud Mama to say the least! I love his school and love his teacher. The women I have connected with during this school year have touched my heart in so many ways - they are like little angels. They are so sweet to me and they absolutely love Carly! We sit in the parent room for about an hour or 45 mins every day and I will truly miss them this summer. The one thing I will not miss this summer is packing school lunches! I started out the school year loving packing Cain's lunches and by February I was so over it - haha!
Miss Carly is so darn big! She will be turning 3 next month and no one ever believes that she is only 2. She wears a size 4T clothes and acts like she's 15. She is a super girly girl - loves wearing dresses, having her nails painted, and bows in her hair. She wears jewelry and sunglasses all the time and doesn't want to leave home without her purse, haha. She is completely potty trained now and has only had a nighttime accident twice ever. She sleeps in a big girl bed (no more crib) now and sleeps really well.
Tball has started back up - this will be Cain's second year. His first game is this weekend. I'm so glad he likes to play because I love watching him play. I'm sure I'll take tons of pictures and if you want to follow along you can just check out my instagram - it's kind of where I have been all year - it's really taking over blogging in so many ways.
I have been having some health issues lately and dealing with my thyroid - no fun at all! Just getting some answers today actually so I am hoping that soon things will start to be under control. I've been walking around feeling like a zombie most days and still trying to maintain our daily schedules.
We just recently had a family trip to Florida - the first "real" family trip for my kids. The first time they've seen the ocean - I think I was more excited for them then they were. Chris' family all went and it was so much fun! We rented a house right on the beach, relaxed for a week, and didn't want to come back to reality. I am ready for another vacation already!
So I don't know when I'll be posting again, whenever I get the urge I suppose. I just kind of wanted to document some things for me to remember :)