Friday, December 27, 2013

Christmas 2013

Christmas was a good one this year and also it was strange and a touch of sad. Our kids were spoiled this year, like every year, by all of our family. They are incredibly lucky to have so many people who love them. Due to the fact they are spoiled by so many, Chris and I decided that this year we were going to start a new tradition. 4 things - something to wear, something to read, something they want, something they need - we also added the one Santa gift they get. Santa brings one special present - whatever they asked him for - for a total of 5 presents each. We really wanted to start this tradition now because this is the first year Cain really 'gets' Christmas and along with that he wants every single thing he sees a commercial for or sees in the toy aisle. I just really don't want our kids to get a shit ton of presents and then be disappointed by the fact that some day there may not be that many. It worked out perfectly. The kids couldn't have been happier. We celebrated with Chris' family, at my Mom's house, at my Dad's house, and then at home Christmas morning. Here are some of the pictures from our celebrations.

a quilt made by Grandma Kathy - so cute!

he's barely taken this mask off sense he got it

this is what he asked Santa for and he picked it up and said 
"I've wanted this my whole life!" - cutest moment ever!

Carly got this super cute play house from Aunt Bonnie.

Thursday, December 26, 2013

waves of emotion...

I heard someone explain grieving like waves of sadness hitting them. It couldn't be more true when trying to explain the feelings I get. All of a sudden, out of no where, comes a wave of sadness. It almost takes my breath away. Tears instantly fill my eyes. It could just be the slightest thing that reminded me of her. A place, a saying, a picture. I miss her all the time and the thing that still makes me the saddest is that my children don't get to grow up having her in their lives. They don't get to make all these great memories to hold on to. Will Cain remember her? We talk about her often. He tells me the things he liked doing with her and the memories he has of her. Carly will never know her. She will always be a stranger in all the photographs. Yesterday I wanted to call her and tell her all about our Christmas. I wanted her to be here with us. Instead we talked about her during all our activities - while making sugar cookies like we used to do with her and about the first Christmas I ever got to spend with her.

Monday, December 23, 2013

End of a year

Helloooo... Helloooo... Hellooooo

Anyone still out there?

I have neglected my little blog for far to long and I think the beginning of the year is going to be my time to get back at it. I have said it before, but I'll share it again, I often filter my writing here but that is one thing I hope to change in the new year. I want this to be a raw space for me again. A place for all my thoughts to flow unedited. A place to share the boring mundane stuff as of a mother of two. So I hope you are still following along with me.

I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas and a Happy New Year! See you back here in 2014  :)

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Hi everyone!

I just thought I would do a little brain dump to get the ball rolling here on the blog.

- I am enjoying my part time job. I like the people I work with and it is nice to be able to work in the evenings/weekends so I can still be with the kids during the day.

- I have been volunteering more and more in Cain's preschool class and I love it.

- I haven't busted out my big girl camera in some time and need to do it soon. I kind of go through spurts of taking tons of pictures and then not taking any.

- It is getting so cold! If I were smart I would move in with my sister from December through March :)

- By this time of the year I usually have all my Christmas shopping done and I just got started this year. I need to get my shit together.

So thanks for hanging in there with me during the transitions of this blog. I do love writing and love looking back at all the posts so I know it isn't something I want to give up doing. I just have to get myself situated and get my mojo back.

I'm back here again...

I just couldn't find my groove over at the new blog. I like the layout of this better so I'm back and hopefully it will help me to keep blogging. I've kind of lost my drive for doing so.
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Thursday, October 3, 2013

Hi Everyone...

I have finally got my new blog up and running - thanks to my awesome husband! You can now find me at ... Yay! Check it out and let me know what you think.

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

I have a ton of ...

stuff floating around in my head right now. All of which I hope to get to at some point soon here on the blog. I wanted to share that today, October 1st, kicks off breast cancer awareness month. There are so many great sites I wanted to share but here are just a few:

Please above all - self check! Get your mammograms done!  

Tuesday, September 24, 2013


shit - it's been awhile. I'm sorry for anyone who still likes to check in and read my blog I have been a tad bit busy lately - I got a part time evening job, so there is that. It feels good to get out of the house and talk to adults for a few hours. I just started so I may be biased but I think I'm going to like it ;) 
Cain is still loving preschool! I'm so so happy that he likes it as much as he does. If I would have known how much he likes it I might have sent him to the "young 3's" program. I'm enjoying the time I get with Carly for a few hours just her and I. Or when she takes a nap during for an hour and I get an hour to myself - holla!
I wish I had tons of pictures to share with you but I haven't even busted out the camera much. I have been taking some pictures - if you want to check them out.
Jackie is still doing the same :/
My sister is coming in October so I will get to see her (for a very short time, but better than no time)! that's it for now - preschool, it's freaking fall!, and working  :)

Sunday, September 15, 2013

I need to vent...

I'm feeling emotionally and physically drained. We went up north this weekend and leaving is always the hardest part. Saying good bye and not knowing if it's the last time you will be able to say it is the hardest. So you all know that my mother in law has been battling cancer for the last year and three months. I've never really gone into to much detail here but she started out being diagnosed with stage four breast cancer. She went through a double mastectomy, chemo, and radiation. She learned throughout the process that the cancer then spread to her brain, spine, and other spots in her body. She is now confined to her bed and is on hospice. She has the best care takers by her side day and night! She is at home and being loved. She does have nurses coming in during the week to check on her.
Just a few weeks ago she started having some set backs where she now sees things that aren't there, she can talk to you and answer some questions but she also randomly talks nonsense. I feel like she slips further away every time we see her. Sometimes she looks at you but it's like she is looking through you.
I've said before that I've never lost someone super close to me before and this is the first time I have ever watched someone so close to me suffer. It is the hardest thing I've ever had to go through. I feel like I can't even put into words what our family is even going through - so I'm not even going to try.

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

1st day of Preschool...

I didn't know how he would do. I thought he might be a little clingy, maybe shed a few tears. We walked to his class room hand in hand and he was fearless. If he was nervous he didn't show it. He marched right in the classroom, hung up his stuff, and was off. I was the one lingering in the door way..."bye Buddy I love you and I'll see you in a bit" "ok bye" - that was it. He did so good! I had to hold back the tears as we walked back down the hall without him. I picked him up a few hours later and he was all smiles. He had a great day and shared all fun things about his day with me. He was excited and can't wait to go back. Here are some of the pictures I took of him before we left.

so cute - they look so big to me

he was so happy

Cain and Dad

Cain and Mom

back pack shot :)

Monday, September 9, 2013

Wow...a quick update...

I'm trying to keep up here on the blog but things happen and time keeps going. We spent a week up north that felt like it was just two days. My mother in law is not doing well. I mentioned on the blog before that she has been battling cancer. It has spread throughout her body and is really taking a toll.

We had to come home because Cain had his preschool open house on Friday. It went so well. I'm going to edit some pictures and do a post all about his first day tomorrow.

I had a job interview Friday evening so I'll be sure to update about that - maybe ;)

Anyway here are a few photos I wanted to share of recent things and then check back tomorrow for Cain's first day of preschool.

Chris and Cain flying his kite

Carly like it too

an early birthday celebration for grandpa - Cain had to help him blow out the candles

sink bathes are the best 

Thursday, August 29, 2013

Brain Dump...

- sometimes I think about starting a new blog anonymously, I sometimes filter what I write about because people know it's me.

- September 1st I'm busting out the Fall decorations and the yummy smelly candles and I don't care if it's going to be in the 80's.

- thanks Dad for introducing me to a wine I finally like - if I develop a drinking problem it's all on you :)

- I'm really hoping to meet some new people once Cain starts school - I need some mommy friends down here.

- my kids are starting to play together and it's so cute. Cain chases Carly around and she laughs and laughs - heart melt

- Carly's love for shoes has begun! She brought me every pair she owns, out of her closet, through out the day and wanted them on. She would get so mad when the larger pairs would fall off.

- Grease is on AMC and I have to watch it. I can never pass this movie up. Classic.

- Super excited about going up north this weekend - want to spend as much time with my family as possible.

Monday, August 26, 2013


our life lately according to my camera...

These two playing together - I'm sure 5 mins after this picture was taken one
 or both of them were screaming. Also, hand on her hip already - sass for days!

looks comfy huh?

ahh my 4 year old - only 14 more days until his first day of preschool

she walked into the kitchen with her daddies hat on

Cain's under the blanket and they were giggling at each other for half an hour

Thursday, August 22, 2013

Cain turns 4

On August 14th Mr. Cain turned 4. It feels a little weird to call him 4 years old. On that day we had a few of his friends come over for lunch and mini cupcakes. He got calls from all of our family to wish him a happy birthday. He told the neighbor ladies it was his birthday and they could sing to him if they wanted - lol - which they did. He cracks me up! Then we had his birthday party the following weekend up north with all our family and friends. He had so much fun and is very blessed to have an incredible amount of people who love him so very much. He wanted a pirate party this year so that was his theme - we all got pirate tattoos that day just for the occasion.
Mr. Pirate

blowing out the candle

opening gifts

pirate friends

sister didn't have a nap and ended up looking like this towards the end of the party - ha

Monday, August 12, 2013

Austin Trip

I had an amazing trip to Austin last weekend. My cousin was getting married so that was the main reason for me to head down. I also have a friend from high school that lives in Austin so it kind of worked out perfectly.  I woke up at 4am on Thursday and headed  to the airport - flew to Chicago and had to run to catch my connection to Austin. I got there in the morning and it was already so hot! Having a friend live downtown was so nice - he knew all the fun things to do and where to go. I was able to do all the fun touristy stuff and meet some new people. Then Saturday we went to a beautiful wedding out in the country. It was so nice to see family I haven't seen in awhile! After the wedding I had to wake up again at 4 am to head back home. It was nice to be home with my babies. Here are some of the pictures I took. If you follow me on Instagram you probably saw a few from my trip as well.

my friend Steve and I at an over look while sight seeing 

you can't see that I am dripping sweat!

Allen's boot store - boots everywhere - I loved the smell

at the capitol building 


the bride and groom cutting their cake - the wedding venue was beautiful 

my cousin Jordan and I

my cousin Shane and I

Monday, August 5, 2013

Recent Pictures

she did this on her own - cracks me up

hiding in the mess



walking everywhere now

feeding baby goats 

Wednesday, July 31, 2013

8 days

In 8 days I am going on vacation. A legit vacation. It is a legit vacay because for 3 and a half days I will not have to feed anyone else while I eat breakfast, lunch, or dinner. I will not have to have any children waking me up in the middle of the night or sleeping in my bed. I will not have to ask anyone if they have to go potty. I will linger in bed in the morning if I feel so inclined. I will not worry about hurrying so we can make it home for naps. Aghhhh....8 more days, lol :)
Other then that I'm sorry about the absence of posts here on my little ol blog. Trying to enjoy the rest of the summer before it flies by. Things like the zoo and visiting family. Chris' mom isn't doing super great so we have been trying to get up north every weekend possible. I'll try and post some newer photos soon and it you don't already follow me on instagram for more everyday photos - cktimes3.

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Fucking dogs

So let's start this post by saying that I like dogs but...

last year or like a year and a half ago I got bit by a "really nice dog" in the back of my leg while I was walking out of a house with a bunch or people. Sense then I've been really paranoid about big dogs. Also sense then there have been many occasions, ok like three, where I'm walking around the neighborhood and random dogs that are loose come running up to me. I've been with other people every time this has happened until last night.

I decided to go for a walk in the evening ,and I was a few streets away from my house, when a freaking pitbull comes running up to me from the side. My mom had just called me a minute before this so I'm having a conversation with her and then all of the sudden "oh shit oh shit oh shit" and I gave my mom a heart attack.

I didn't know what to do so as I'm trying not to die of a heart attack I head through the first lawn and start banging on the door of a random stranger all while this pit bull is directly behind me. It wouldn't go away. Someone finally answers the door and lets me in as I'm explaining what happened.

All this happening while my mom is on the phone - but I forgot that I was talking to her so she is just like listening and thinking I'm getting abducted or something. It was so freaking scary! The guy calls the police and tells them to send out animal control. The dog didn't have any collar on. There were some other neighbors standing on their porches so the guy hollers over and asks if the dog was theirs and they said no that they tried getting in their car and the dog chased them back to the house.

Chris had to come pick me up. I'm going to be completely paranoid now every time I go for a walk!

Friday, July 19, 2013

Random Pictures

Just wanted to share some random photos of what we've been up to lately. 

enjoying the pool

sometimes you just fall asleep like this in the middle of the day

funny faces

playing in the cupboard - which he has done sense he could crawl and still does it

playing - love this girl

he has been in a "don't take my picture" phase