a mother seem to automatically make you feel guilty about everything. Tonight my son is at his grandma's house for the night so his parents can get a full night sleep. I cried the entire way home. I felt incredibly guilty for leaving him there. I'm not sure why...he is with his grandparents who love him and love having him there. They are taking great care of him, I know. I'm running on empty - haven't slept well in forever, I NEED sleep.
The guilt pretty much started the day he was born. After being in labor forever, pushing for 2.5 hours, and doing everything I possibly could I had to have a c-section. At the moment it was happening I obviously didn't think twice about it - whatever it took to get it over with - but later I felt guilty that I wasn't able to have him naturally. Sense that day for the last six months I've felt guilty about everything from food and clothes to the doctor I picked (and did not like at all). Being a working mom even though it's part time - not just being a working mom but the fact that I like going to work 3 days a week.
I know that I am not alone in this motherly guilt trip. I know lots of moms who feel the same way. I just wish I didn't! I'm obviously doing the best I can for my little bird and doing what I think is right for him. That's all you can really do after all isn't it?
And can someone please tell me why it is that fathers do not share in this guilt trip? It's not fair! -well life's not fair ...just practicing ;) So if anyone has any suggestions on how to rid myself of this never ending guilt I'm all ears.
P.S. Sorry for the lack of pictures (auntie kayla) it's just hard to take pictures when your child is being possessed by the teething devil. I will try a little harder :)